Mid-Year Vows

About a month ago, or so...Heather made a comment to me that keeps replaying in my mind. She mentioned in conversation that I met all of my New Years resolutions. And I think I keep replaying that conversation searching for what she meant. I don't think I achieved my resolution. That was to lose weight. And that, I haven't done! (As I sit here typing with my cup of Jamocha Almond Fudge ice cream!)

So...I pulled up my blog and browsed the January archives. And I found it. I know what she was talking about! Re-read it here.

People Pleasing. I feel as though I am continuing to be so strong. I am not saying 'Yes' to appease people. I feel more genuine and thorough when I agree to something I really want to do, rather than agreeing to doing it with half of my heart.

Detox from Toxicity, and Don't Get Involved. I have combined these because they seemingly go hand in hand. I have really distanced myself from the negativity that seemingly clouded my life. I have not cowered, nor have I shut out...but I reprioritized, and I feel so refreshed! I really think that's why I seem to have such a much more positive attitude and disposition in my life this Spring/Summer!

Assertive. I did not write about this in my original post...but it's scattered through out a few different ones. I had a goal, that after the first of the year, I would get Hayden's education plan put into place for the 09-10 school year. Leaving matters up to others was doing me no good. Although I've never sat back completely and just observed. So by the end of February, I met with the Board of Special Ed for the CUSD, and the Special Ed. team at her school. She had 2 psych. evals scheduled for April, a speech eval., and a second opinion on her diagnosis. We also met with the intake specialist for the State after months of run around. And in that period of time...the school created her IEP, she started Speech Therapy there once a week with the kindergartners, she's going to have an aide in Kindergarten and receive Speech and Socialization. She was also denied benefits for services with the State and she's being re-evaluated this Thursday for a resubmittal. She's got an incredibly supportive team and a plan! I've also got a tutor lined up for her that's coming out to meet her in two weeks!

We blew that vow out of the water!

So, I'm not sure what lies ahead in the future, but I do know that I have found a great sense of myself over the last nine or ten months. I'm loving it, I'm comfortable with it and I've embraced it. As often as we say that growing up sucks, it can also be rewarding! I know life will continue to throw me curve balls, as it does almost daily. But all of the above vows that I have made to myself and followed through with, have given me the strength, the courage and the confidence to handle them much more different. Maybe this is my zen.